The Life of a Midget

owlbeckycmu @ 2007-05-31T17:37:00

2007-05-31T21:36:33Z

The closer it gets, the more i'm dreading it.... Well, not exactly. I'm just starting to get concerned as to how things are going to work out. I'm so used to a life where i'm surrounded by people that I care about.... It's going to be tough.... Very tough..
Anyway, we went to see Kaz yesterday at the hospital. He's doing well and only has a few more treatments and stuff to get through and then hopefully this will all be over for him. After visiting him we went and saw Shrek The Third. It was cute. I want a donkey dragon. Then it was bar time. good times as always at O'Kelly's.

I feel like I have sp much to say and no way to put it into words... Or if I even want to..... Such is life I guess...

if you read blogs on myspace, please dismiss this, it's the same

2007-05-22T04:00:40Z

Well, reality is setting in... I got an apartment today. That means I have to start facing the fact that in about a month and a half, I will no longer be a Mount Pleasant resident. Hell, I won't even be a Michigan resident. The apartment is in Indiana, about 10-15 minutes from the casino. So, not a bad drive at all. I really like it and it's close to the beach and to a mall and all that stuff. We also discovered that there is a train station right in New Buffalo, like 2 minutes from the casino. So, that means trips to Chicago to see Katy will be SO EASY! And cheap! And, if I don't want to drive home to my parents house, I can take the train into Dearborn and they can pick me up! It'll be excellent in the winter. I'm still nervous and stuff but i'm getting to be more excited. Life is definitely going to be different but, I think i'll be ok. Oh, and for all you in Mt.P, there is a White Castle less than 10 minutes from me. That should make you want to come visit even more!!!!

owlbeckycmu @ 2007-05-15T22:54:00

2007-05-16T02:59:32Z

I can't wait for Sunday!!! Whereas i'm not looking forward to working til 2 then being in the car for 5 1/2 hours, i'm still excited. Hopefully on Monday i'll find an apartment so I won't have to live in a box come July when I move. I'm very thankful for my parents cuz without them, this task would be nearly impossible. Anyway, i'm also excited cuz I get to see Eric and Nate while i'm home!!! And hopefully some other people too.
Ok, well, i'm really just wasting time until I have to help Toph cut his hair then it's back upstairs to watch the Wings comtinue to kill the Ducks!

Oh, I got a new phone today!!! After 3 years of having the other one, I decided I could probably spend the money to get a new one. It makes me happy :)

owlbeckycmu @ 2007-05-04T17:17:00

2007-05-04T21:21:14Z

I cried again today. I thought I was ok with change... But now that it's coming down to it..... I just don't like it. I'll miss both of them more than they know.

I can't do it...

2007-05-01T20:49:56Z

This week is going to be hell. I'm already getting emotional. Just thinking about it is hard... I'm terrible at goodbyes. I know most of them aren't forever. They better not be anyway. But it doesn't make it any easier. It starts tomorrow when I get to work. I hope there's no customers because im going to bawl when Scotty walks out the door. Then on Friday.... Oh geez... I don't even want to think about it. I don't want to grow up. Can't I just stay here forever????

i don't want it to end

2007-04-30T04:08:04Z

The warm weather today made me ridiculously happy. After work I went and played softball with the boys. It was tons of fun. And, aside from sucking in the outfield, I actually hit ok. I want to get out and play some more. Too bad everyone's going to be heading home for the summer. It's days like today that make me want to stay stuck in this town. But I know that it's time to move on and all I can do is try to enjoy these last 2 months that I have here. Anyway, after softball we went and hung out at the house for a few hours. Good times on the porch with some of my favorite people. This entire weekend has been spent with all the people that I love. It's been such a bittersweet end to another year of my life...
Ok, I wanted to write about stuff but i'm getting all sappy and I don't want to be...

owlbeckycmu @ 2007-04-23T16:41:00

2007-04-23T21:16:26Z

I'm not sure I can even begin to describe the things that have gone on since Wednesday night. But I want to try because there are memories that I want to be able to look back upon from this amazing few days.
Wednesday-
It all started with Crit and Neeson coming over to hang out with Luda and I for awhile. Wii bowling, the flying of the helicopter, the throwing of animal crackers and those damn plastic bunnies from easter.... It was an entertaining hour or so. Although, with those 2 crazy kids, what else could you expect.
O'Kelly's for open mic was ridiculously silly. It started off slow but then once Dom and Auggie and Tim and Libby got there it was more entertaining. Luda and Libby writing notes to each other on napkins, the throwing of napkin pieces down peoples shirts, dancing with Scotty, and just crazy conersations. Good beer, good friends, good music.... What more could you ask for??
Thursday:
Hung out at the Deepher house for a bit during the fundraiser for ANAD. Chatted with LindsAy and got to see Timmy!!! Then I chilled on the front lawn at the Phi Tau house with Kurt, Dutot, and Ryan.
The fun really began when I picked up Crit and Neeson to go to Walmart so we could buy what we needed to make dinner on Friday. Neeson was drunk from his trip to the Cabin with his class so, him in Walmart trying to push a cart = hilarious. After that Crit and I met everyone up at O'Kelly's to watch the Wings game. It was fun and I forgot how much I enjoy being at the bar during playoff games cuz everyone gets so into it! We left after the second period and went home to watch the end. Unfortunately drama began then and I went home feeling highly annoyed. But whatever, it happens.
Friday was a BEAUTIFUL day! I got some stuff done then went and hung out on the front porch at the house for awhile. Played catch with Potter in the front yard for a bit then got a call from Neeson that they were ready for dinner. So, I grabbed some beer from home and headed over there. We ate, then played around outside for awhile with Dutot and Ryan. Walked to the storage unit and sat there for awhile which was amusing. We came back as it was starting to get dark and Crit and I layed around for awhile and talked while Neeson did homework. Around 10:30 we headed to Dutot's for his party. Talk about funny. First of all, for awhile we were like the oldest ones there. As I drank more it didn't bother me tho. My lovelies, Kati and Jenn were hammered and highly amusing! Then there was Neeson going around with the beer bong, and my little Tristan drunk off this ass.... I had to play mom for a little while but that always seems to happen so it was ok. Crit and Neeson tried to steal the keg multiple times which was funny especially since Dutot was out on the back porch the one time they tried to take it out the door! The walk home with a drunk Crit was funny and then finding out later that Neeson and Kobo managed to steal the keg was amusing.
Saturday was reserved for work and then laying around. Went to the house for about an hour and had a good time talking to everyone as always. I was too tired to hang out for too long though. The last 3 nights were catching up with me.
Sunday was a bunch of errands and stuff until Canadian Suave hockey. We lost which was sad but it was a good game. I'm sad that it's over. I have nothing to look forward to on Sundays now.... Chillin after work to watch the end of the game with Toph, Dom, Luda, Dutot, Ryan, and Evan was fun. Even tho Ryan was WASTED!!!! " Farts will ALWAYS be funny!!"

I feel like this post really does nothing to describe how these days really were but since I wrote it all i'm damn well going to post it, even if no one reads it.

Really to sum it up, my love goes out to the following
Luda
Crit
Neeson
Dutot
Ryan
Tristan Nelson
Kobo
Todd
McKay
Kati
Jenn
Winzee
Randey
Evan
Dominic
Auggie
Larry
Kurt
Brem
and anyone else I hung out with at some point in time this weekend.

owlbeckycmu @ 2007-04-15T15:47:00

2007-04-15T19:54:09Z

Formal last night was hilarious. Minus a little bit of minor drama, it was a great time. I was crazy. I wasn't drunk, but I was all over the place dancing, singing, basically bouncing off the walls. I don't know what my deal was but it was fun. I'm too tired to go into any details right now but i'll leave with this before my nap...
I love....
Toph of course
Bremy
Dominic
Auggie
Tristan Nelson
Todd
BGT
Dutot
Tim
Libby

owlbeckycmu @ 2007-04-09T21:05:00

2007-04-10T01:11:38Z

I'm tired.... Physically and mentally. There's too much going on right now. These last 2 weeks of work have been draining and I still have to get through this week. How am I going to handle a busier center??? Right now, the answer is I have no fucking clue. I still haven't accepted the job though. Rich is still working on finding out what my salary would be. but Troy was excited to hear that i'm seriously considering it. So that kinda makes me happy. They want to send me to Mohegan over Memorial Weekend if I take the job... that should be interesting... I just don't even know right now. Every part of my body is exhausted including my brain.....

I think i'm in some form of denial....

owlbeckycmu @ 2007-04-05T11:21:00

2007-04-05T15:27:44Z

I "unoffically" have been offered a job. I haven't accepted it yet but most likely come Julyish I will be living in New Buffalo Michigan and working at the Cyber Quest in Four Winds Casino. It'll be "My" center, meaning the running of it will be my responsibility along with the help of supervisors but it'll be a lot different than how it is now here at Soaring Eagle. I' m not 100% sure how I feel about it yet...... I guess I have a little while to think about it....

Well, it's off to work again... I think I might fall over... I'm so tired.

"Your Team!"

2007-03-30T07:15:08Z

-We have begun to play the " they're on your team" game. I love it! but it makes me miss Mandy and our snowboarding class!
-Luda and I saw the dancers from Rythym Nation at Walmart LMAO!
-T-Bell with Luda and Skonkol was hilarious
-EM B is an amazing flyer! It's going to look sweet as hell tomorrow!
-Chatting with Skonkol on our Walmart trip was fun. and I feel old!
-As much as I love my Phi Tau's I'm so glad I've gotten a chance to meet the SAE's that I have this week. They are amazing people.
-I love my little "family" that has been made this week, Luda, Seckel, Timmy, Kevin, and myself.
-Mine, Luda, Scott, Kevin, and Timmy's "team" is the best!
- T-minus about 14ish hours til Spencers mom's "special treat"
-Rachel will be here tomorrow and that makes me happy!

Ok, I really need to go to bed. I love my Deephers and the SAE's and i'm so proud of you guys!!!

owlbeckycmu @ 2007-03-28T00:14:00

2007-03-28T04:20:14Z

I'm kinda sad tonight.... And I don't like it. And hanging out didn't make me feel any better.. It actually kinda made it worse.... I did enjoy talking to Katy for an hour and a half tho. If I end up in New Buffalo at least i'll have a friend who is only about an hour away from me. Only time will tell....

I love....

2007-03-27T20:17:52Z

that I am alum and yet I still am taking a somewhat active part in Greek Week. I can't help it. I have nothing better to do so why not? Plus it gives me the chance to hang out with my sisters and meet new people. I mean, it's better than sitting at home alone in my apartment right?? It's been fun working with the SAE's. The late nights trying to make stuff up with Kevin, Luda, and Timmy have all been highly entertaining. Stunting outside yesterday was fun. It made me miss cheerleading which in turn made me think about Strat, Reed, Cait, Kara, Virg, Stacy, and Heather. I miss the good times we used to have. Anyway, last night after practice me, Luda, Kevin, and Seckel went to Walmart to get a few things for costumes. That place is HUGE!!! It's the first time i've been in there. I'm lame but i'm kinda excited to go shopping for work cuz I bet the electronics department is better than it used to be. And Luda and Kevin want to come with me when I go so that should be fun. Ummm yeah... There really isn't that much going on right now. I mean, I feel like there is but.... Oh! We had 2 floor hockey games this past Sunday. We won both which was awesome and I feel as if I played well. I have like 8 bruises on my leg and one nasty one on my arm but who cares! I wish I would have done this before this year. I've been having so much fun with it.

On a totally different note, Rich will be in town on Sunday so sometime between then and Thursday when he leaves I will know where my life is headed. I asked him if he thought I would be here still this summer. He told me it would depend on how our conversation goes and what we decide... So that makes me curious...... I guess all I can do is wait and see.

Well, I'm going to continue to sit here and be bored for another 2 1/2 hours......

owlbeckycmu @ 2007-03-25T00:01:00

2007-03-25T04:06:01Z

Another year has come and gone. Seriously, it doesn't seem like it's been 5 years. And yet, it also feels like it's been more than 5 years. I don't think either of us actually thought that we would be in this for the long haul when everything first started. I'm not gonna lie, I'm getting a little nervous about next year. I don't know yet where i'm going to be and he doesn't know where he'll be. I've thought about it a lot today because, will we get to spend our 6 year anniversary together? Or will we be too far apart for that to happen? It kinda makes me sad to think about. So, I should try not to and just take each day as it comes and wait and see what happens......

Just for the record....

2007-03-23T05:39:51Z

No, I am not sleeping with Crit. Jesus Christ people!!!!! Last time I checked, a girl and a guy could just be friends. But if that's not the case then apparently i'm a big fat whore because most of my friends are guys. This is just out of control....

AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

owlbeckycmu @ 2007-03-20T16:06:00

2007-03-20T20:09:42Z

Work blows today.. My shift is only half over and I don't have anything to do. On a normal basis I would clean or stock stuff or whatever but they're going to be tearing apart my redemption counter and the upper cases in the next few days so what's the point?

My body hates me. I can handle the sore muscles and what not but my back is driving me nuts. It was so hard to fall asleep last night because I was so uncomfortable.

I really have nothing to say... But i'm so bored... AHHHHHH!!!!

Oh, and WTF??? I don't understand.........

I hurt.....

2007-03-19T20:38:18Z

This weekend turned out even better than I thought it would. Even though I had to work on Saturday for awhile it was all good. I never seem to be able to type out everthign I want to say with it it seeming ridiculously boring so i'll just kinda highlight it.

-drinking Wii bowling on Friday was quite funny. I miss Doug!!!!
-Toph's yummy breakfast he cooked us on Saturday morning.
- Actually going to the bar on St. Patty's Day for a bit.... and Juice yelling at the townies that brought their kids to the bar!!!!
-"Max" and Mandy getting engaged :)
-Getting to see MTom. I miss him.
-Drunken Jenn
-My conversation with Crit out on the fire escape
-Chris warming up my hands after said conversation out on the fire escape!
-Eating popcorn off of Crit
-Hanging out with Juice, Lindsay, and Buter. Although I feel as if i didn't see them that much.
-Drunk text messaging with Nate that he doesn't remember
-Getting locked out of my apartment.
- Staying up til 5am at Crit and Neesons with everyone.
-Chris makes a good pillow!!!
-Getting 3 hours of sleep and then having to work Sunday morning = NOT FUN
-Super slap happy times with Scotty at work :) We were almost out of control!
-Canadian Suave, the best floor hockey team ever! We won our first game 13-0
-Mock Rocking it up with Luda and Kevin.. fun times in the Woldt lower level classroom!

I'm in ridiculous amounts of pain today from lack of sleep and from hockey and dancing... It's kind of a good hurt at least... Minus my calf were I got the charlie horse yesterday morning.. Anyway, there's probably more that happened this weekend but I don't remember.....

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owlbeckycmu @ 2007-03-15T18:09:00

2007-03-15T22:08:36Z

So, pretty much I suck at life. Six years of school wasted and a degree I can't do anything with. Cool. I'm cool.

another stimulating day at work....

2007-03-15T16:20:29Z

-my legs still hurt from running on Monday and I think I have shin splints.... sweet...
-the weather the last 2 days was awesome. now it's cold again... at least it's sunny.
-i spent way too much money yesterday. Between things that I needed and things that I didn't need. Plus, the bar....
-I didn't win anything at Hungry for Hockey. That makes me sad. I spent 20 on raffle tickets......
-Eric, Chris and Greg called me drunk from the Wings game..... Assholes :)
-Greg will be up here in a few weeks. I'm excited to see him.
-I have the day off tomorrow... I don't know what i'm going to do with myself since I got so much accomplished yesterday..
-I can't believe it's already the middle of March....
-I want to know about grad school!
-I need a nap...... and food...

I hate....

2007-03-13T18:37:16Z

That it's 65 degrees and sunny outside and i'm stuck at work. I think i'm gonna go for a walk when I get out of here, before the sun sets. We'll see.

I forgot...

2007-03-13T00:11:51Z

how good it feels to work out. and doing cardio, running in particular, is so much easier now that I don't smoke!

owlbeckycmu @ 2007-03-09T16:52:00

2007-03-09T21:56:33Z

So, I have to say that last night was quite comical. Randey attacked me when I first walked into the house and I'd have to say that was the best welcome i've gotten from anyone in a long time! B puked on my fleece which was actually really funny too after the fact. Damn the Thunderstuck song!!!! Having Emily tell me what she did in such a blunt way was also funny even though I already knew. Power to ya girl, I still love you! Actually sitting down and having a conversation with Elyse was nice. Even if her, B and I were talking about the crazies! Listening to the drunken Emily and Buter conversation was hilarious too... They talked themselves in circles i'm pretty sure. Overall it was a fun night even tho I couldn't stomach any alcohol....

Well, off to find something else to do to occupy my time until D-Money gets here.

owlbeckycmu @ 2007-03-08T18:03:00

2007-03-08T23:02:38Z

This is bullshit. I'm so fucking irritated. To hell with this gaddamn place

owlbeckycmu @ 2007-03-05T01:13:00

2007-03-05T06:36:16Z

I had an interesting weekend.... Driving home on Friday night was annoying yet somewhat humorous at the same time. Luda and I got "pulled over" at a gas station cuz I apparently turned left into a driveway that had a No Left Turn sign. The cop was kind of a dick but at least I didn't get a ticket!!!!! We got home and hung out with my parents for a bit, watched Deal or No Deal, and attempted to go to bed. The phone call from Ang intterupted falling asleep but the next call was too funny. I knew who it was before she did... Drunk phone calls from old boyfriends = funny to me, irritating to Luda :) We got up Saturday and spent about 3 1/2 hours at the funeral home. It was good to see some of Stacy's family, I just wish it hadn't been under those circumstances. I also got to see/ talk to a lot of people I haven't seen in a long time. Saturday night was good times. Eric came and picked us up and we met Nate and Shrek up at Gators. After about an hour or so of being there, Eric's dad joined us. He's such a riot! He claimed he was just going to have a beer or two and then leave. Well, like 5 beers and 2 shots later he came with us to "Cole's" and then went home at 3 in the morning!!! Good times. I'll have to remind him that we're supposed to go to Vegas :) Other than that it was just nice to be home, even if it was for such a short time. I miss my parents at times and I hate the fact that my best friend lives more than 2 hours away from me. I guess that's what happens when you grow up....

Anyway, it's time for bed for me, if I can sleep through Toph and Juice screaming in the other room.

owlbeckycmu @ 2007-02-27T01:28:00

2007-02-27T06:38:37Z

I played in the snow today. It was fabulous. I got home from work and stuff and walked upstairs and heard snowballs being thrown at my window. So I looked out and Crit, Neeson, and Dominic were out there. So, I bundled up and went out and helped them build a giant snow penis. Then we tried to make snow boobs but it didn't work so we carved the pile of snow into a toilet instead. I threw snowballs, had them thrown at me, got tackled into the snow countless times, was humped by one of the 3 countless times also after being tackled, had snow shoved in my face, and overall I just had a blast. Luda and Craig came out for awhile too and while sitting on the huge snow pile by D-6 they all decided it would be fun to bury me in the snow. That was amusing and very very cold! I really forgot how much fun it is to play in the snow. Everyone should do it more often.